On being 20 something..

from an e-chainmail, and what I'm feeling this year:
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will
be in a year or two, but then get scared because you
barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were so
close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have
ever met, and the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones.
What you don't recognize is that they are realizing
that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or
insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to
what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are
looking for a job and realizing that
you are going to have to start at the bottom and that
scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging more than
usual because suddenly you realize that
you have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and what isn't.
One minute, you are insecure and then the next,
secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of
your life.
You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly,
change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the
past with dear life, but soon realize
that the past is drifting further and further away,
and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or
move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you
loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed
and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know better.
Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too
and cannot figure out why you are doing this because
you know that you aren't a bad
person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look
cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts
to look pathetic. You go through the
same emotions and questions over and over, and talk
with your friends about the same topics because you
cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and making a
life for yourself... and while winning the race would
be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this
relates to it. We are in our best of times and our
worst of times,
trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing
out.
Send this to your twenty-something friends...maybe it
will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their
state of confusion.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to
keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.