Today.. I joined my first CG of the semester. By chance, Andrea and Ivan were at the same CG, so I was forced to confront them, as well my faith journey in CSS. Will write more..
update:I finally had a talk with Ivan after many months of animosity. He apologised for 'clamping' me instead of being a friend and hearing me out. The other large issue (for me) was with regards to Andrea. Struggling to understand why people like her (Danielle, Joan, Marianne, in fact many others) dislike me so has been a bitter experience. But then, the realisation is that this bitter pill is needed for me to change and be a more open and approachable person. (Interestingly, this includes endeavouring to find other conversation topics besides CSS, the church, chess, diving, astronomy, philosophy, badminton, snooker or soccer. )